quarternotes

Two hours after midnight. Me. Not so sleepy. And so here I am, trying to compose something out of the dwindling thoughts and random ideas. One minute, I was staring blankly at my Facebook news feed and the next minute, I was feeling nostalgic enough to go through past entries of this rather private blog. It just dawned on me (besides some grammatical cringes I got) that it seems like I'm living a slow life - says the girl who acts like a social butterfly on a weekly basis, sometimes, daily. Point is, I haven't given much thought as to where my life is headed.

One of our episodes from Usapang Kapatid was to "live in the now" which was inspired by Guy Finely's book, Let go and Live in the Now. I think I embraced it big time; too much, that I often let the principles of perception slip through my mind. I've always been the type who would perceive. Well, I guess I still do. I'm just not that confident to say that I seriously look in to the future - in the general sense of the word. In my lame attempt to be detail-oriented, I tend to overlook the bigger picture. I satisfy my pet-peeves all too much that I miss out on the beauty of the whole. I focus too much in the now that I fail to see the obvious future of my decisions.

So far, the aforementioned obvious future doesn't include tragedy - perhaps some cheesy, sappy heartaches; not really the type that turns my life upside-down. Oh, thank God for that! Taking from that note, I don't want to wait for the day when it's already too late to turn around, too late to choose left over right, or too late to say no. Hence, I accept the challenge that has been given to me by my troubled mind. This is between me and life's ticking clock. But how do I do it? Should I widen my sense of perception? Should I seize the good stuff and avoid the bad ones? Or should I simply be ready for everything?

Sigh. I guess my next step would be... (see title) - SOON!

Here I go.