is it enough?

Sometimes I asked myself if I really am giving a hundred percent in my tasks and responsibilities. It's like you feel like giving your best, but it doesn't reflect at all from any angle.

And sometimes I'd ask myself if I really can do it... or am I just a fool to believe that I can?

I know it will really take time for me to get used to juggling my life right now... have a few more brain cells regenerated. I just hope I won't lose focus.

bummer.


WARRIOR OF THE LIGHT on Decisions

The Warrior of the Light is terrified when making important decisions.

"This is too much for you," says a friend. "Go on, be brave," says another. And so his doubts grow.

After some days of anxiety, he withdraws to the corner of his tent where h usually sits to meditate and pray. He sees himself in the future. He sees the people who will benefit or be harmed by his attitude. He does not want to cause pointless suffering, but nor does he want to abandon the path.

The Warrior allows the decision to reveal itself.

If he has to say "yes," he will say it bravely. If he has to say "no," he will say it without a trace of cowardice.


Warrior of the Light
Paulo Coelho

WARRIOR OF THE LIGHT on Friendship

A Warrior does not keep company with those who wish to harm him. Nor is he seen in the company of those who want to "console" him.

He avoids anyone who is only by his side in the event of defeat: these false friends want to prove that weakness is rewarded. They always bring him bad news. They always try to destroy the Warrior's confidence, all under the cloak of "solidarity."

When they see him wounded, they dissolve in tears, but, in their heart, they are happy because the Warrior has lost a battle. They do not understand that this is part of the fight.

The true companions of a Warrior are beside him always, during the difficult times and the easy times.


Warrior of the Light
Paulo Coelho

sleep walking?

This morning, my sister asked me if I had checked on our dog last night.. say around, 3:30am. She heard Cooper howling and she thought I went down to check on it. Funny, I don't recall getting off my sheets. Weird.