So little time, so much to do!

BoldThis is SO not Top Model!

It's the end of October and the deadlines are killing me. As much as I want to procrastinate, it's not anymore an option now. Oh boy! What to do and HOW to do all these?!?!

road block

Strike 1, diverting. Strike 2, ignoring. Strike 3, abandonment.


I couldn't write anything now. I feel tired. My brain refuses to function. I'm weakened by the thought that I still have a long way to go to finish the script, and recording's in a few hours.

And the worst part is... at my weakest... people seem to be so insensitive. While he's constantly trying to lighten up the moment, he can't understand the gravity of what I'm going through, so he has no idea that I'm already crying my guts out. Would it kill him to care a bit more? Even just now... even for just a short while?


"I think it's best that you don't know." -Anonymous

Have you kept some little detail from someone that you wouldn't really think of telling it to this one person so you could refrain from further screw ups, awkwardness and confusion?

It's like you really, really want to tell him/her because you tell him/her almost everything. But this detail... this particular information would sure destroy everything. It would cause damage if not destruction. But you would rather keep silent; you just have to. If you want to keep him.

Is this becoming selfish? No, I don't think so. You're only saving you both from further pain and dismay. So have you ever felt like you want to shout something out to the world, but you're just too afraid that he might hear it?

I think this is enough. 'Coz I know, I had.

"How's my life so far?" er, next question please!

So the last couple of months have been so wild! Lemme just squeeze everything in a capsule (or capsules. most of you know how LONG I write) LOL.

If you really want a gist... like a picture book type, you may visit my Twitter or Twitpic pages.

Coffee has been my daily dosage of oxygen. My constant companion for me to be able to function... or at least walk straight without bumping in to anyone. I've been addicted to espresso shots and latte @GJ. The next thing I knew, I've already formed an entire new circle of chums with the baristas there. In the not-so-past, my sister and I usually hang out there to catch up. Although lately, we've been really busy so I hang out there mostly because of work... and mostly alone (of course, with Apollo. that's a given already.) Or if my brother has training in karate and I have to wait for him. It's really fun chatting with them because I feel young.. well, okay, maybe a little juvenile at times. But it's freakin' cool coz I'm mostly with older people at work. Not that they're sooo old or anything, but a lot of them are at least 5 years older than me. It's nice to hang around people my age. Carefree. Easy. Oh, I am so missing my college friends right now.

The weather is driving and drowning everyone like CRAZY! With Ondoy and Pepeng hitting the metro and the north of Luzon respectively, Filipinos' stable lives there were crushed in an instant. But somehow, it made me proud to be a Filipino all the more... hearing stories of heroism, bayanihan and stuff... aah, the Filipinos are really worth living and dying for (Ninoy and Cory Aquino)

Work is... should I say, killing me. I'm dead tired, but still I want to do more. Don't get me wrong, I love my job. I love what I do. I love my workplace. I just love it... though, somehow.. there are times when I feel that it doesn't love me back. Insane.

Lately, I've been out of track and feel like I'm detached to myself. Or just simply, Detached. Many contributed a lot of theories, but I can't seem to verbalize it. Words are not even enough. And I don't know who I can talk to about this. Someone who will take me seriously and not like I'm the greatest drama queen of all time.

Oh life.. there are a lot of things to be thankful for. I sure hope I'd be able to convince myself to focus and eye on the goal EACH and EVERY time.

So how IS my life so far? Honestly...? I really don't know.


Change the World by Changing Me

The Sufi Bayazid says this about himself:


I was a revolutionary when I
was young and all my prayer to God was
"Lord give me the energy to change
the world."

"As I approached middle age and realized
that half my life was gone without my
changing a single soul, I changed my
prayer to "Lord, give me the grace to
change all those who come in contact
with me. Just my family and friends,
and I shall be satisfied."

"Now that I am an old man and my days
are numbered, my only prayer
is, "Lord, give me the grace to change
myself. "If I had prayed for this right
from the start I would not have wasted
my life.

NOVENA PRAYER FOR CORAZON “TITA CORY” C. AQUINO

God’s Word Today, The Philippine Star
Fr. Manoling V. Francisco, S.J.

NOVENA PRAYER FOR CORAZON “TITA CORY” C. AQUINO

Leader: A Reading from the Holy Gospel according to John. (John 6: 37-40)

Jesus said to the crowd:
“It is the will of him who sent me
that I should lose nothing of what he has given me;
rather, that I should raise it up on the last day.
Indeed, this is the will of my Father,
that everyone who looks upon the Son
and believes in him
shall have eternal life.
Him I will raise up on the last day.”

This is the Word of God.

All: Thanks be to God.

Leader: Let us recite the prayer of self-surrender to God that Tita Cory herself wrote in
2004.

All: Almighty God, most merciful Father, You alone know the time
You alone know the hour, You alone know the moment
When I shall breathe my last.

So remind me each day, most loving Father, to be best that I can be
To be humble, to be kind, to be patient, to be true,
To embrace what is good, to reject what is evil, to adore only You.

When that final moment does come,
Let not my loved ones grieve for long, let them comfort each other.
And let them know how much happiness they brought into my life.
Let them pray for me as I will continue to pray for them,
Hoping that they will always pray for each other.

Let them know that they made possible whatever good I offered to our world
And let them realize that our separation is just for a short while
As we prepare for our reunion in eternity.

Father in heaven, You alone are my hope. You alone are my salvation.
Thank You for Your unconditional love. Amen.

Leader: As Tita Cory expresses gratitude to the Lord for her life and many blessings, let
us thank the Lord, in Tita Cory’s own words, for the gift that she has been to our
people and the rest of the world.


All: In pain and sorrow
I have never been alone
Many thanks, dear Lord!
A heart full of love
In times of deep affliction
This I pray for, Lord…
In much hurt and pain
Yet my heart is not bleeding
Thank You, Thank You Lord!

Leader: Let us turn to Mother Mary to whom Tita Cory was devoted all her life to
accompany Cory to her Son Jesus Christ.

All: Hail Holy Queen, mother of mercy
Hail our life, our sweetness and our hope
To you do we cry poor banished children of Eve
To you do we send up our sighs,
Mourning and weeping in this valley of tears
Turn then most gracious advocate
Your eyes of mercy upon us,
And after this our exile
Show unto us your blessed fruit of your womb Jesus.
O clement! O Loving! O sweet Virgin Mary!

Leader: Let us pray.

Lord Jesus Christ, Savior of the world, we pray for your servant, Tita Cory, and
commend her to your mercy. For her sake you came down from heaven; receive
her now into the joy of your kingdom. We make this prayer in the name of the
Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit.

All: Amen

Leader: Eternal rest grant unto her, O Lord.

All: And let perpetual light shine upon her.

Leader: May she rest in peace.

All: Amen.

Leader: May her soul and the souls of all the faithful departed,
through the mercy of God, rest in peace.

All: Amen.



Fr. Manoling Francisco, S.J. is a prolific composer of liturgical music and serves on the faculty of the Loyola School of Theology. For feedback on this column, email tinigloyola@yahoo.com