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On the 18 December 2010 episode of Usapang Kapatid, we had the infamous Dr. Eduardo Jose "Eddieboy" Calasanz to talk about St. John of the Cross (Feast: 14 December). He talked about St. John's spirituality in his poem, "La noche oscura del alma" or "The Dark Night of the Soul." Our episode centered on befriending the darkness and see light - God's light and His great love for us.
During the discussion, I was crying inside. Tears of gladness filled my heart. The words of St. John of the Cross explained by Dr. Calasanz truly touched me in a deep sense. I tweeted with Usapang Kapatid's account (@usapangkapatid) all the good points raised. These are a few of them:
These are really remarkable points raised during the show. While researching about the life of St. John of the Cross, I was moved by how deep his spirituality is - how firm, how strong, how true. But now that I saw his spirituality within his literature, I couldn't find words to describe the astonishment I'm feeling. Though I know that there's a lot more to it that what we've discussed in our show, I think what I learned was just the right amount of dosage I need to heal my broken spirit. Broken spirit, huh?
I'm not saying that it's totally destroyed, ruined and hopeless. It's broken in the sense that it's carrying a lot of weight - mostly depression from all the pain I'm witnessing from my loved ones and friends. As mentioned this evening, "the only way to the light is going through darkness." I guess this episode was the light my spirit was searching for. For now, amidst the surrounding darkness, I cried - not out of devastation, but because of God's overwhelming love.
Darkness was talked about this evening as the sufferings and pain we experience. It plays the role of life's rough roads, tall walls and huge blocks hindering us from being embraced by God's fiery love. But I, personally, have a different perspective on darkness. Here's my take.
I love the darkness. I'm not a psycho-emo-suicidal freak, okay? I just see it differently. I love the infinity that comes along with it. It doesn't have any limit. It has no boundaries. There's nothing more free than darkness. Especially when it's also surrounded by silence.
There's a lot more you can do in the dark if you just put your mind into it. Exactly. Imagination is the key. Seeing something limits you to describe that something with its physical state. But not seeing that something may push you to pour down as many adjectives as you can passing through all the senses or even more. Darkness is nothing, but darkness is everything.
Aside from it's mysterious nature, I find the darkness very calming, sweet and sincere for it gives me no boundaries when or why or how to talk to my God. It gives me no limit of self-surrendering. It may seem like falling down a bottomless pit, but then in the dark, falling may be different from being cradled. Not really sure if I'm making sense here, or I'm just all blacked-out of this darkness topic.
Darkness is nothing, and everything that is not.
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